My results are negative and I’m trying to be positive.

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Oh, hi. It’s been 58 days since I last stopped by. So much has happened. Nothing has happened.

I made some overnight oats with strawberries and honey (and oats, obviously). Also, milk.

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I decided to start this thing.

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It will eventually (maybe) look like this thing.

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I was tested for the virus, and it took ten days to get my results. Before I knew I was negative, I decided to hit my body with a tremendous (whether it’s ultraviolet or just very powerful) light.

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I fell in love with these shoes. I put them on for this photo, and then I put them back in the box. I’ll gift them to myself when I feel like I deserve a gift. (I know that sounds sad. It’s not, I promise.)

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Oh! I spun two ounces of roving, and am slowly working my way through the final two.

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I’ve been working, I’ve been at ridiculously high levels of anxiety, I’ve been distracted and fidgety and angry and sad but also completely aware that I’m lucky. I’ve been thinking about the kids going back to school and the people who continue to protest and the work that needs to be done in this country and how we have only 96 days until the election. I’m thinking about how I know 11 people who have tested positive for the virus, and 3 of them died (not close friends or family, but friends and family), and how anyone who thinks this virus isn’t a big deal is surely not doing their research. This isn’t an Us vs. Them thing. Not everything is an Us vs. Them thing, despite what we’re being told.

I think the most important thing right now (and probably always) is that we all stop being assholes. I’m trying to not be an asshole. I’m trying to help where I can. I’m trying to be positive. I wear a mask because I care about you. (Yes. Even YOU!)

For the first time in over a year, I pulled out the sewing machine to make masks yesterday, and this one is my favorite because I have a thing for chairs.

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I’ll try to not let another 58 go by without visiting.
I hope everyone is okay out there.

12 thoughts on “My results are negative and I’m trying to be positive.”

  1. Glad to hear from you! Have high anxiety days here from time to time. Hopefully things will start to settle down before long.

  2. This year has been so difficult on those of us with anxiety and everyone’s anxiety looks different. Also, you deserve to take those shoes out and wear them. Do it!

  3. I hear your fear, I’m sorry it makes you anxious, I understand. Hang in there we will prevail and this will come to an end. I do believe God is just shaking things up!

  4. And yet you have maintained that absolutely outstanding quarantine haircut!

    Your mask, the shoes, the cross stitch, even the oats look fabulous. Glad you are hanging in through all this. Guessing that this year’s “First day of school” pictures for the girls will be a little different than in years past, but knowing you they will be memorable.

    XXOO

    1. So sorry to hear that people you know have been sick and died from this mess. I felt some small flicker of hope at the beginning of this that we would handle it properly and now malaise for months as we just watch the continuing deterioration and flashes of serious anger and grief about what this is doing to our children. Hang in there. Even by a finger nail. We may actually make it out of this.

  5. Oh hi there! I’m relieved to hear that things are relatively OK in your neck of the woods. Likewise here along the northeast coast (except for the shocking shark attack in Maine.) Our quarantined nuclear family occasionally gets into squabbles, but nothing too murderous – yet! Fortunately, we have access to food deliveries and Netflix, and we have vast stashes of books, art supplies, and yarn.

  6. So glad to hear from you. All is well here; our governor (WI) has finally mandated masks in indoor spaces. (Of course, at least two county sheriffs in my region have said they will not enforce the order.)

  7. Hey! It’s good to see your face and your shoes and your amazing chair mask! (I love specifically THOSE chairs! I would love to own a pair someday, upholstered in something fabulous.) I think for those of us for whom things are fine (??), we have guilt and content and anger and lots of itchiness. I know I do at least. I’m glad you are keeping your perspective, even though it’s challenging. Sending love your way.

    PS – the dog gazing up behind the oats — too cute!

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